< embarassing >
wth I cant believe I wrote such stupid stuff in the past, thinking it was cool.
ah. I'm just gonna keep this blog because it's so funny to read about what I wrote last time.
love, leeshi
cuted on Sunday, November 26, 2006 at 9:17 AM
< leeshi >
I have changed the song to 'Dedicated To You' by W-inds.
cuted on Thursday, October 20, 2005 at 11:01 PM
< I have put a song >
Finally, this blog has music! It is 'Fukai Mori' by Do As Infinity.
cuted on Wednesday, October 19, 2005 at 1:33 AM
< Ages since the last post >
"How does it feel to be always told you are in the wrong? How does it feel to know you are always in the wrong? I feel terrible, I am just a pathetic immature kid. But you should have told me the truth instead of letting me repeat the same mistakes again and again.
I'm sorry(sorry, sorry, sorry)
I'm sorry(sorry, sorry, sorry)
I should never have bothered you in the first place.
I am trying to go through a major change. I'm doing the best I can right now. I wonder if you realise you've been doing more harm to me than good by lying to me that I was good instead of telling me... The cruel truth.
Tears fall from my eyes as I find out what you really think of me. You should have told me the truth. I know you are "Mr. Nice Guy". But "Mr. Nice Guy" you do more harm than good, I'm sorry to say.
I'm lost(lost, lost, lost)
I'm lost(lost, lost, lost)
I wasn't aware of myself.
I am trying to go through a major change. I'm doing the best I can right now. I wonder if you realise you've been doing more harm to me than good by lying to me that I was good instead of telling me... The cruel truth.
I am perplexed at all the rumours flying about me. I am aware that I am in the wrong. But you didn't have the courage to tell me I was wrong so what was I supposed to do when I didn't even know that what I did was wrong?
I'm calming down(down, down, down)
I'm calming down(down, down, down)
I'm changing before your eyes to a better person.
I am trying to go through a major change. I'm doing the best I can right now. I wonder if you realise you've been doing more harm to me than good by lying to me that I was good instead of telling me... The cruel truth. The cruel truth. The cruel truth.
Yeah... Yeah... Yeah... Yeah..."
cuted on Sunday, October 16, 2005 at 9:58 PM
< no title >
"Everywhere I go, I see people around me
Fat people, thin people, all sorts of people
I see people crying, I see people smiling
On the subway, on the train and on the T.V.
People, I can't understand why there are
So many different types of people
You broke my heart again
I've been dumped again
You broke my heart again
You killed the spirit in me(killed the spirit in me)
No matter what I do, you never seem to be pleased
Washing dishes, cooking meals, all sorts of things
I see you smiling in front of another girl
It always happens, it never stops and you don't care
You always do me wrong, spin me round and round
Turn my life upside down
You broke my heart again
I've been dumped again
You broke my heart again
You killed the spirit in me(killed the spirit in me)
I won't say I don't care
I won't say I won't care
I care, I really care about
All the things you did to me, you
Break my heart, yeah, break my heart, yeah, break my heart
You broke my heart again
I've been dumped again
You broke my heart again
You killed the spirit in me(killed the spirit in me)
You broke my heart again
I've been dumped again
You broke my heart again
You killed the spirit in me(killed the spirit in me)
You are everything to me"
cuted on Tuesday, September 06, 2005 at 12:47 AM
< My one shot >
My one shot on Leon Lim! I'm posting in here so it won't rot in winglin. There's poster for it. Go to www.winglin.net/fanfic/crazy4leonlim to view it or you can alternatively go to my other blog whose link is somewhere on this page and search for it there. Leon commented on it before, he said he hopes it never happens cause' he dies in the end haha!
It was a normal school day like any other. People crowded around Maia and Leon, the two most famous faces in school, asking for their autographs and requesting to take their pictures.
When the crowd finally dispersed, Leon and Maia gave each other a goodbye hug and each made their own way to their classes.
Leon walked past BoA without noticing her. Almost nobody knew or could be bothered about BoA's existence. Even if they did, they shunned her because she was not like the others. BoA, according to them, was weird. People who did not find BoA weird still shunned her anyway because they did not want to be titled weird too. Leon was one of these rare and few people.
BoA, who knew what people thought about her, did not care much about what people said about her but she wished that for a moment, even if it was just a second, that Leon would look at her. She felt that that would be the best thing that could ever happen to her.
This was what happened everyday in school. BoA grew to like Leon more and more and Leon grew increasingly attracted to her. His attraction for her was to an extent that he grew more and more miserable each passing day. Leon still loved Maia but he wanted very badly to be friends with BoA and share all his troubles with her. Something about Maia kept him from telling her about his troubles and happiness.
BoA could feel that Leon was not as happy as he seemed but she kept it to herself because she was afraid that Leon would scold her and say that she was a busybody. Very soon, it was time for graduation. Leon and BoA lost all contact.
Maia was holding a concert that day. BoA had bought tickets for admission to the concert in the hope of meeting Leon. She knew she was being foolish, but she really wanted to meet Leon just once more. Just once more before she want overseas for further studies. Leon was just across the street.
Leon saw BoA. "Good, she's here too. We're not in school anymore so nobody will say I'm weird even if I make friends with her now." Leon thought to himself. He thought that he would run across the street and talk to BoA. He was sure that BoA would be a very good friend and he was also sure that he would finally be happy after knowing BoA. Leon rushed across the street.
"BANG!"
A car screeched to a stop but it was too late. Leon had been hit by the car and died due to the loss of too much blood. Maia was in no mood to hold her concert anymore but she had to. Although BoA wanted very much to cry then, she felt she had no right to. After all, she was not even friends with Leon. She sadly went home and the next day she got on the plane and left Singapore forever. Maia sang a song for Leon at her concert but she could not complete it. Halfway through it, she burst into tears and could not be consoled.
In the end, BoA lived a miserable life thinking about Leon and living in the past. Maia would never know the reason why the accident had happened. Nobody would ever know what Leon thought and felt...
cuted on at 12:27 AM
< none >
"I am that girl you walk past everyday
I am that girl that no one notices
I am not special or unique in any way
But did you know, how happy I am
I see you everyday
You don't notice me
But even so I believe we have a certain chemistry
I feel you everyday
I know you're not as happy as you seem
I want to comfort you, but
I can't
Is it love?
Is it love?
Is it love?
I see you everyday
You don't notice me
But even so I believe we have a certain chemistry
I feel you everyday
I know you're not as happy as you seem
I want to comfort you, but
I can't
I'll never know, cause' you're gone
Gone like the wind
With the wind"
cuted on Tuesday, August 23, 2005 at 2:36 PM
< no title >
"I am that nameless girl
You look at everyday
I am that rebellious girl
That everyone disdains
But I, I believe that
I am worthy of what I say
Worthy of this world
I, I said
I am worthy of this world
In every single way
I am that face
That's void of emotion
Twenty-four hours of the day
But I, I know that
I am worthy of what I say
Worthy of this world
I, I said
I am worthy of this world
In every single way
You put me down on a spur of emotion
You spin me round and round, turn me upside down
But, hey, I don't care
Cause' I, I believe that
I am worthy of what I say
Worthy of this world
I, I said
I am worthy of this world
Worthy Worthy Worthy Worthy
I am worthy of this world
In every single way...
cuted on Saturday, August 20, 2005 at 1:21 PM
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